Shadows

One of those nights.

I’d blend my eyes to gray if I knew it would hide the confusion

I was forced to this place like a magnet of intense deliberation

Every day was a struggle to back away and hide forever

This would be the day I’d say goodbye

I’d never look back like a champion wrapped in arrogance

But tomorrow I’m burrowed in this comfortable hole

Ripping my brain apart and denying my soul

I lie in this bed tossing and turning but set perfectly still

In this madhouse of cast shadows and reckless shrill

I’d try to withhold from my rhyme and reason

Try to move the tracks of the train

But I can’t derail what has already been nailed

And I can’t stop this engine in the midst of its engagement

The dark smoke keeps my eyes peeled

And it burns so bad but I won’t shield the images

It follows me like the creaking wood floors

Just like the glass swinging doors

Alone with my shadows in the brightest of lights

Keeping me company in the darkest of nights.

Same shit every time.